Analysis of a painting

Hhmm…
I guess I can write a blog on every topic of the book Thanks for the Memories!
But I choose to write on the best ones! The earlier one was the emergency number and this one on the analysis of a painting


Justin- the lead of the book describes a painting in which a lady writes a letter with a smiling face and he interprets that the lady must be writing a letter to her lover.

And as usual I was taken away by my thoughts. As the technology has developed, no longer remains the concept of letter, so no longer the smiles on the faces of the writer. No however things have been changed, yet the messages are conveyed even today! The smile was not because of the letter she was writing, but the fact that she was writing to her lover.

So according to today’s generation a lady smiles while typing the message on the mobile, writing a mail is concept which has replaced letters but no longer today’s generation have the time to write mails like it used to happen! But I wonder even if we have the time to write the mails, will that passion which would be expressed in the handwriting of a person seen? The love that would be transmitted by the handwriting no longer can exist.
Ohk without deviating from the topic, lets talk about smile, or conveying the message (its one and the same), talking to the person, which was next to impossible! The world may think the person is mad while they speak but the one who talks have the smile on the face. This explores another facet, earlier we smiled only when we conveyed the message, now also when we receive the message!

Being a painter and a writer, I am wrong to call myself both as I no longer do the first one at all, and neither can I call myself a writer with the blogs that I write that are only for me, however assuming I have a bit of knowledge of the both I am wondering can I portray myself when I am smiling, as I closed my eyes with this thought, I was smiling while writing a blog! Am I conveying the message? To whom? Not surely to the one whom the lady in the painting did!

But I can say I am smiling for the passion with which I am exploring my thoughts. So here I am again wondering was she smiling because of the passion with which she was writing the letter or because she was writing to her lover, or because of the thought that she is conveying the message?

Only the one who has written a letter to the loved one can explain me this fact of smiling while conveying the message!J


Note: Changed the front as that is the handwriting which I can change using the technology, trying to express my passion while conveying the message

Emergency number

I wanted to talk to some one. Was flipping the numbers in my phone was trying to think when was the last time I was trying to do this? May be a year back? Nahh!!!!!

I am reading the novel of Cecelia Ahern which talks about dialing an emergency number which everyone would remember by heart that at any worst circumstances of ones life.
Looking back I want you all to get into a thought process of what’s your emergency number was/is?

For me it was always dad who was my emergency number, car kharab-that emergency number, School declared a holiday all of a sudden-dad’s number was my emergency number, I am late for college-my emergency number! Besides all this, there was day when I wanted to call someone when dad was in hospital, I wanted another emergency number to call, it was 1 or rather 2 at night, I was all alone, pa was rushed to hospital, in hospital neither ma’s number nor was lavi’s number reachable! It was then first time in my life I flipped my phone, wondering whom should I call?
Relatives? No one was in Delhi to come immediately rather they will all be stressed out thinking what has happened!
Neighbors? No what will they do?
Friends? Yes friends I can call…though they may not reach immediately, may be they will, but at least if things get worse they will, I knew.

I flipped my phone again which number should I dial? And then I had got my emergency number.
All I did was called and started crying, as I would have never done before in my life.
The person freaked out without understanding what has happened? But didn’t say a word and let me cry and say what I wanted to, but I am sure that understanding of what I was saying was impossible because of two reasons, one I was crying and speaking, second it was 2 at night. And next day was his exam, but that never was my concern, and he spoke for next two hours and then on my request started calling my parents, which I also started doing. And ironically it wasn’t me but he who got my sis line first and said call Sharanya now, and I realized by that time all had reached home, I over heard the voice at door, my mom’s, then sis and then when I heard my dad’s voice! I was relieved! All three are back, without even asking them what happened at hospital, I knew now every one is home and fine, and slept off…without realizing that the emergency number was still awaiting for me to call back and say thank you everything is fine!

Exams were over and it was afternoon that I realized that I had forgotten because my old emergency number was active, I had forgotten to even bother about the new one!!!!!!
From that day onwards I knew I had two emergency numbers. Nuisance emergencies were to him, and necessary ones to pa. Things were going on well, but things had to change.

And after a recent incident, I again realized everyone has their own lives to worry about and the emergency number has to be updated as and when life moves on, according to situation, but I have the brain to understand that, but how do I explain that to my phone?
Whenever I pick the phone it starts dialing the same two emergency numbers! One will remain forever but other I don’t know, if at all the other number would even ring if I dial?

So keep updating your emergency number and a personal suggestions is you always should have 2 emergency numbers!!!!!!:-)
And make sure after reading this, you are giving a call to both your emergency number and say thank you for always being with you when u want them!:-)

Freak out

· I freaked out when my money got struck in ATM
· I freak out when I am late to reach to any place (movie, or college or office wherever it may be)
· I freaked out when I had to be in hostel
· I freaked out when I had to shift another hostel alone
· I freaked out when I boarded the train to join my job without receiving the offer letter
· I freaked out when I missed my rajdhani to Bangalore
· I freak out when I have to do some work for the person I don’t like
· I freaked out when I almost missed my flight to delhi
· I freak out when I am hungry
· I freaked out at the thought that you are leaving me forever (those who need to understand, have understood the statement-sorry its not you ;-))
· I freaked out after the accounts results
· I freak out when my mom asks me to get married
· I freak out when u don’t understand what I mean to say, who ever it may be
· I freaked out when my car wires caught fire
· I freaked out when I drive at 120 on highways
· I freaked out when I first time met with an accident-mujhe kuch nahi hua, mera car thodi thuk gayi bas J
· I freak out when people don’t follow rules
· I freak out when people don’t understand commitment of doing things on time
· I freaked out when my sis got admission in symbiosis
· I freaked out when my sis won the Rhapsody title
· I still freak out when my dad drives the car-its alwaz a roller coaster ride
· I freak out when I am tired

And I am tired now…..should end the blog before I freak out!!!!!!J

whom should i be like?

Hare rama hare rama , rama rama hare hare
Hare Krishna hare Krishna , Krishna Krishna hare hare……….


Hold on guys…nt writing something philosophical but yes!the thought to write the blog came when I was hearing these words repeatedly in my ears recently.

And I just couldn’t resist comparing life of gods with present generation after having watched “break ke baad” recently.

The movie showed where the women was focusing on her career without even thinking about what family means and the guy is soft and makes her understand that he likes her and she also does!lemme not go to write the review coz most of u wud have watched.for those who haven’t u may pls!not a bad one to watch!

Ohk coming back to hare rama hare Krishna
When I was clapping reciting these words I was feeling the haterd for sri Krishna as he is always is called radhakrishna…………., hello lets talk about radha, does any of us worship her for the sincere love and affection she had with lord Krishna?
Or meera bai?who remembers her?who worships her? Have we ever thought about her dedication towards sri Krishna-he enjoyed being loved…but he never married them……why?????? was the thought coming to my mind…..

Then I was diverted to sri ram!!!!ohk sita ji was the only women in his life…..but he had sent to her live in forest for few years…….why??????and the ramayan where he kills ravan is what is known to us, but rest is not known that much…….. then hatred developed for sri ram as well…..

……Wait that doesn’t mean my faith in god is over coz I believe god exists and I am sincere to my prayers coz its ultimately this trust which makes me live on this earth.

I was wondering if I am supposed to show my anger to sri Krishna and ram bhagwan or towards the women of that century to be like that??????
Alright when women of this century is behaving differently like deepika in break ke baad-are they also easily accepted by the society?I dnt think so?but why shouldn’t I be dedicated towards my life?
Whats wrong when women of this century are behaving like sri ram and sri Krishna….. as it happens in the movie where she leaves the the guy saying I want to focus on my life???????????do the society still wants us to be like Sita, Meera or Radha???????


Any one who has the answer…………I seriously need to clear my confusion……..
How should I be like?????????Sita Radha or Meera?or the women of this century not bothering about anything and living my life??????I will freak out if u ask me to strike a balance between the mythological century and todays generation!coz that’s impossible!!!!!!!!

Moon

A mother gives child the food pointing at the moon, same child when goes far abroad the mother looks into the moon thinking it would convey the message to the child that she is missing him.

A child sleeps on the terrace with the father looking at the moon with the complete feeling of the security, where when father grows old, he sits on a park, looking at children playing under the moon and misses his sons, who don’t know where he is.

Same is applicable when years after person looks into the stars and moon trying to plot which star is his father and considering the moon as the mother always.

These are few unique relationship related to the moon and the stars, but the most unique one is the relation of LOVE. A moon side walk with the person you loved is the one which will be remembered by most. Some sit on the sea shore watching the moon, the best date two people can ever have. The cards usually have moons and stars as the symbol of love rather than just the heart. And moon is messenger for the people living away. But as moon is related to hurt in case of parents so is the case when you do not have the loved one, looking at the moon causes the extreme pain. The day when moon is not in the sky, v look into the sky to convey the message, but when it is there, v feel the hurt because v know however v send the message it won’t be delivered.

To analyse more, the walk and talk has made us walk and talk and the only silent listener is the moon, who would know what is talked about as it is the one which listens to both the sides of the conversation.

Moon is the birthday gift as it's the only soul which is present besides the happiness of ours with all the loved ones who call to share it.

Well that reminds me of a blog of a friend about the big bang which separated the moon and the earth and they revolved around each other since they truly loved each other.

Hence proved that moon is not a symbol of love, not a fact to be admired about, but it is a remembrance, a separation, a proof of existence.

Was thinking all this when suddenly the beep in the phone brought me back to earth bringing the broad smile in the face, because I thought the moon have delivered the message to one I wanted to ,which was momentary and got converted into sadness when I looked at the message and realized it was from Airtel about a new offer.

a movie of life, the chakravyuh and i am the star!

Had heard the stories when i was a kid about Abhimanyu ka chakravyuh or rather watched in TV!never thought life could be a chakravyuh for me!and coincidence while wathcing TV today again sri krishna was explaining i am the time, i was in past, present and will remain in future. everything will happen as and when it has to happen!what happens when we plan ahead of time?can i go back in past and allow me correct my mistakes?can sri krishna take me in future coz present is always what we all hate!but no i want this moment of my life to freeze....and that is what it has to be!when i get back to every corner of my home,it takes me back to memory of what i thought while sitting at this place, or doing a work!n i have got all that!well not to move back to my last blog, coming back to chakravyuh!when we go into things and dunno the way out or to survive and come out as a winner is the problem!i am thinking what are the results of my chakravyuh?the end or survivor like the happy ending of all bollywood movies, the sole survivors being the hero and heroine of the movie!i had recently read somewhere or saw a play, every person is hero/heroine of their life!that means i am going to survive. but what has the director and producer of my life(GOD) has decided for me still remains unknown. i wish i could read the script of my life before like a star can do in the beginning!either i would have been mentally prepared of whats my life is gonna be like, or would have asked before hand to change the script!NOW!!!!!!i don't know the script, i have entered the charkravyuh...............whats next is scary!i take risk in life, but got in this unknowingly, coz i thought i wrote my destiny of life, but now i feel GOD made me do that also!if that is the case, it has to be happy ending, and i am courageous enough to fight the war of my life.but why wasn't abhimanyu the hero of his movie?is it gonna happen with me too?why was my role in movie designed as so sensitive and emotional, letting others hurt me for having loved them!i wish it was a book, that i could have thrown thinking it to be a depressing one!but people who are seeing my life shouldn't throw me saying m a boring book!at times people perceived me to be happy and a person who enjoys life,yes i do but now i am in chakravyuh, so thinking of fighting the war currently!and life plays game with you when you actually are sad!a game in FaceBook says "you scored 9/ 10 and says you are quite happy as compared to others........in the game " HOW HAPPY ARE YOU?"

journey of life-dedicated to my parents

often it happens while driving that we go in a way and suddenly we realised the path we have taken is wrong and the one in which we earlier were would have taken us to our destiny!!!!!!!but lets now get a little real!lets talk talk about the journey of life!how many of us have been in a state we get all the we craved for thinking "if we get this, life is going to be perfect".......we all would have, if not you i have almost every time in life!i imagined of a life which was supposed to be like this!n now when this real has happened........i am just hating it!and i am getting a feeling that was my perfect life from which i have come out!!!!!!damn but this is not the driving that it takes me few seconds or minutes to get back to the same life from which i used to imagine a lot of perfect lives with realizing that it was my perfect life!

jotting down the points of my perfect life:-

-to go on drive to India gate at 11 at night with one of the coolest parents on this earth.
-to go for shopping with mom dad,without realizing how much money was spent
-to for a dinner to an unknown restaurant,without realizing how hungry ma pa could be.
-watching TV with ma pa.......wen they would fall asleep and we still watching TV in full volume
-getting up in morning with ma pa shouting and scoldings
-everyday reaching to office/school late and fighting...... with mom giving us food in car, we all blaming each other to be late
-when you return home hungry mom waiting with some hot snacks ready for us with garam garam coffee..
-celebrating bdays of we four not in a big hotel but with a small cake in our home
-making cake in the noida home(once new home)....which me and lavi were hating to shift to..
-maid wont turn up for a day and we ll fight for doing the work
-missing all cousins and the fun,living so far from all of them
-coming for vacations to cousins place
-the midnights walks and talks with sis discussing future and about the dream guys
-the screams we would do during the heavy rainfall where screams would blow the roofs off and not the rain
-car break downs in middle of roads and waiting for some mechanic to drop in ...meanwhile shouting to amma appa over phone.... what to do now?
-the get together's at home when mom will be all day in kitchen so that we and our friends can enjoy when they are home!
-a call from college, i would need this for some occasion tomorrow, please make sure things are available
-we will be ill waking parents all night and next day take a leave and sleep however they wake up all night and are off to work the next day too!
-amma ke haath ka chatak rasam and appa ka wattai koyumbu
-the teasing pinch i would give dad, n he will smile and say "kar it dont pain me", same when tried with mom, will get a tight slap immediately, n me jumping and running back!
-triggering some past topics of our parents which will lead them fighting and we laughing madly over it!
-one chipkali in the house and scene will be like a dinosaur has entered the place
-the perfect cleaning keeping things in its place and ma pa can never find what the exact place is and will wake us or call us and v ll say udhar hai(the perfect place)
-we only used to talk in phone, bills were never thought of!
-imagining a life to be with relatives and not having that feeling of insecurity(which never probably had existed then,realized now)
-the square sessions, we four sitting at one corners and discussing seriously some nonsense issue
-getting scolding to talk over phone or msng friends often
-having loads of novels but no time to read them.
-wanting a bean bag to sit on a rainy day and read novel relaxingly
-then facebook was an entertainment, a mode of communication, knowledge sharing, a madness


the life now, which i thought was to be perfect, living in the place of our own people!people are my own, but living with was impossible coz everyone is busy in our own lives, we never thought of that!n now we have realized our would was no one but amma and appa!and i want to go back to MY life which now seems impossible

-i dnt want a holiday with amma appa, but my permanent life
-i came to make a career but at the cost of losing my life, a big deal i made,still wondering if right or wrong!
-today also i get up with an alarm ringing
-i reach office on time, but hungry,no one gives me food in the morning
-sis comes home for talks but we dnt talk abt future,neither dream guys,rather land up fighting with not needed topics(i know i ll miss this also one day, but i m glad i have her to look forward to ,although late at night)
-i eat pastry everyday today, but dnt get an opportunity to make.
-i have cousins here, i go out with them, but i could hav done that once in an yr during vacations, atleast i would have been shopping with ma pa more frequently
-i have a debit card to own but no one to go for shopping with me or rather with no money!:-)
-i come home late, unlocking doors and find no one but loneliness, no snacks, not my parents but only four walls, with FB which once was life hoping to find someone similar like me.
-now all frnds whom i used to call or msg are lost, i find myself craving to talk to parents
-time is there, novels are here, but i dnt like reading them
-i got a bean bag,but its there lying alone, without me!


Now all i want is ,my life back-me amma appa and lavanya- driving ,watching movie,eating and fighting together!!!!!!!!