often it happens while driving that we go in a way and suddenly we realised the path we have taken is wrong and the one in which we earlier were would have taken us to our destiny!!!!!!!but lets now get a little real!lets talk talk about the journey of life!how many of us have been in a state we get all the we craved for thinking "if we get this, life is going to be perfect".......we all would have, if not you i have almost every time in life!i imagined of a life which was supposed to be like this!n now when this real has happened........i am just hating it!and i am getting a feeling that was my perfect life from which i have come out!!!!!!damn but this is not the driving that it takes me few seconds or minutes to get back to the same life from which i used to imagine a lot of perfect lives with realizing that it was my perfect life!
jotting down the points of my perfect life:-
-to go on drive to India gate at 11 at night with one of the coolest parents on this earth.
-to go for shopping with mom dad,without realizing how much money was spent
-to for a dinner to an unknown restaurant,without realizing how hungry ma pa could be.
-watching TV with ma pa.......wen they would fall asleep and we still watching TV in full volume
-getting up in morning with ma pa shouting and scoldings
-everyday reaching to office/school late and fighting...... with mom giving us food in car, we all blaming each other to be late
-when you return home hungry mom waiting with some hot snacks ready for us with garam garam coffee..
-celebrating bdays of we four not in a big hotel but with a small cake in our home
-making cake in the noida home(once new home)....which me and lavi were hating to shift to..
-maid wont turn up for a day and we ll fight for doing the work
-missing all cousins and the fun,living so far from all of them
-coming for vacations to cousins place
-the midnights walks and talks with sis discussing future and about the dream guys
-the screams we would do during the heavy rainfall where screams would blow the roofs off and not the rain
-car break downs in middle of roads and waiting for some mechanic to drop in ...meanwhile shouting to amma appa over phone.... what to do now?
-the get together's at home when mom will be all day in kitchen so that we and our friends can enjoy when they are home!
-a call from college, i would need this for some occasion tomorrow, please make sure things are available
-we will be ill waking parents all night and next day take a leave and sleep however they wake up all night and are off to work the next day too!
-amma ke haath ka chatak rasam and appa ka wattai koyumbu
-the teasing pinch i would give dad, n he will smile and say "kar it dont pain me", same when tried with mom, will get a tight slap immediately, n me jumping and running back!
-triggering some past topics of our parents which will lead them fighting and we laughing madly over it!
-one chipkali in the house and scene will be like a dinosaur has entered the place
-the perfect cleaning keeping things in its place and ma pa can never find what the exact place is and will wake us or call us and v ll say udhar hai(the perfect place)
-we only used to talk in phone, bills were never thought of!
-imagining a life to be with relatives and not having that feeling of insecurity(which never probably had existed then,realized now)
-the square sessions, we four sitting at one corners and discussing seriously some nonsense issue
-getting scolding to talk over phone or msng friends often
-having loads of novels but no time to read them.
-wanting a bean bag to sit on a rainy day and read novel relaxingly
-then facebook was an entertainment, a mode of communication, knowledge sharing, a madness
the life now, which i thought was to be perfect, living in the place of our own people!people are my own, but living with was impossible coz everyone is busy in our own lives, we never thought of that!n now we have realized our would was no one but amma and appa!and i want to go back to MY life which now seems impossible
-i dnt want a holiday with amma appa, but my permanent life
-i came to make a career but at the cost of losing my life, a big deal i made,still wondering if right or wrong!
-today also i get up with an alarm ringing
-i reach office on time, but hungry,no one gives me food in the morning
-sis comes home for talks but we dnt talk abt future,neither dream guys,rather land up fighting with not needed topics(i know i ll miss this also one day, but i m glad i have her to look forward to ,although late at night)
-i eat pastry everyday today, but dnt get an opportunity to make.
-i have cousins here, i go out with them, but i could hav done that once in an yr during vacations, atleast i would have been shopping with ma pa more frequently
-i have a debit card to own but no one to go for shopping with me or rather with no money!:-)
-i come home late, unlocking doors and find no one but loneliness, no snacks, not my parents but only four walls, with FB which once was life hoping to find someone similar like me.
-now all frnds whom i used to call or msg are lost, i find myself craving to talk to parents
-time is there, novels are here, but i dnt like reading them
-i got a bean bag,but its there lying alone, without me!
Now all i want is ,my life back-me amma appa and lavanya- driving ,watching movie,eating and fighting together!!!!!!!!
